Why is so hard not hide
Well I guess its time to get real and not hide any more. This is going to be hard I've been hiding behind a privet blog for ages now and its time to start over and to be open and public with my beliefs and what I'm struggling with.
Here we go my name is Gracie and I'm 19 and I've been living out of home for just over a month and its been good for me to do it but at the same time its been incredibly hard to be independent and not want to run home and crawl back into my old habits with my family right there but at the same time God has a plan for me here and the truth is in the last couple of weeks I have been asking wether this move was a good thing for me or not and the truth is the people around me are so supportive and willing to show that I am in the right place. but this doesn't change the fact that I still struggle with my family is now an hour and a half away from me.
But the dissidence has given me time to be me and I quickly realised that I don't know who that fully is and its been awesome seeing that it doesn't matter who I am. God loves me no matter what and this is true for all of us even if you don't believe what I do his love is there and it has been since before you where born. This is the one of the things that as a Christian I really struggle with is the LOVE that is there for me from God and I hope that as i continue to grow and go deeper with God that I can see this more and more and be able to show that love to all the people in my life. This love is so much deeper than i could understand and that's the awesome part about it.
So it is time for me to stop putting on the mask and hiding the person God has made me to be and he has made me this way and i don't have to be ashamed of that and neither do you. the more we hid the harder it gets to be real and understand who you are personally and what different things mean to you and in taking off the mask you begin to be free and real with yourself and see what it is that you are hiding from. So I'm ready to take off my mask. ARE YOU??
Here we go my name is Gracie and I'm 19 and I've been living out of home for just over a month and its been good for me to do it but at the same time its been incredibly hard to be independent and not want to run home and crawl back into my old habits with my family right there but at the same time God has a plan for me here and the truth is in the last couple of weeks I have been asking wether this move was a good thing for me or not and the truth is the people around me are so supportive and willing to show that I am in the right place. but this doesn't change the fact that I still struggle with my family is now an hour and a half away from me.
But the dissidence has given me time to be me and I quickly realised that I don't know who that fully is and its been awesome seeing that it doesn't matter who I am. God loves me no matter what and this is true for all of us even if you don't believe what I do his love is there and it has been since before you where born. This is the one of the things that as a Christian I really struggle with is the LOVE that is there for me from God and I hope that as i continue to grow and go deeper with God that I can see this more and more and be able to show that love to all the people in my life. This love is so much deeper than i could understand and that's the awesome part about it.
So it is time for me to stop putting on the mask and hiding the person God has made me to be and he has made me this way and i don't have to be ashamed of that and neither do you. the more we hid the harder it gets to be real and understand who you are personally and what different things mean to you and in taking off the mask you begin to be free and real with yourself and see what it is that you are hiding from. So I'm ready to take off my mask. ARE YOU??
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